Wednesday, May 28, 2014


I want to love you, but
I don't know what to do about it.
I want to you kiss you, but
I am so scared of the taste.
I want to tell you how
I've waited all these years to tell you, but
I don't bother cause you've
cut off both your ears.

I think about you when
I'm out drinking alone.
I start to day dream with
the pictures on my phone.
I think I need you.
I think I'm wrong.
I feel you moving, but
it's just you moving on.

I read your articles.
I read you mind.
I think about the bank where
you save up you're time.
I'm just a dreamer.
You're just a dream.
I think you love me, but
I'm caught up in the seems.

You want to reach out, but
you don't want to seem vulnerable.
You want your freedom, but
it comes at such great cost.
You want protection.
You want control.
You want the person who
can fill up all the holes.

You're always busy.
You're never home.
You only think of me
when you feel all alone.
You say you're right.
You probably are.
You feel so close, but I
push you way too far.

You never ask me
how I'm doing anymore.
You only assume
I'm the same as once before.
You say you're sorry.
I don't speak.
We're like a sad song
broken on endless repeat.

We're seven verses sung
in discord harmony.
A dissonance heard
by ears of likened hearts.
A major melody.
A minor chord.
The sweet resolve
led into a soft encore.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014


I see what you're doing
You've found something new
You're learning how to flip your craft on its ear
and explore new territory.
And I'm proud of you.
I'm proud for you.
I'm inspired.
I'm envious.
It's so easy for you to share your work
You can just send a photo and wah-lah.
You're getting the credit you deserve.
You're getting up and out on the streets
littering the walls with your creation.
It's brave, it really is.
Watching you has helped me expose my fears
and in that exposition my goals are revealed.
There is much I have to share.
There is much work I have to do.
We are very alike, yet so different.
We both want to succeed!
And I am proud of you for wanting that!
We are both contenders fighting a similar fight
in a world riddled with wars of varying nature.
I am doing my best to be a friend.
I am doing my best to grow.
There's so much I want to say,
so much anger and hypocrisy waiting to be exposed,
but things of that sort are better forgiven and half-forgotten.
Because no matter how angry I get, or how jealous I become,
I love you, I care about you, I've got your back.
This is my gift to you.
It's small, but like the passion you have in craft
and in creating envy, 
it grows.

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Come on Strong

What did you think would happen?
You came in with a loose tongue, spitting
like a dog off a leash
carrying on about what you heard

I know, I know, I know, I know
I've heard it, heard it, heard it,
heard it all before
You know, you know, you know, you know
it's not worth it
but it hurts, so you like it

You didn't think it would happen
You placed a bet on the wrong hand, didn't you?
It was a long time coming
You fell fast face first on the cold, cold ground

You thought you knew it all
had it figured out from the start
Well, we've all come together now
do your best not to rip us apart

You come on strong
Like the wind before a storm
You come on strong
Like the waves beat down on the shore
You come on
Like the night before the dawn
You come on strong
Like the sound of fading away

Monday, May 5, 2014


Text messages and miscommunication
Lonely days and lonely nights
Better connecting with self and cat
Behaving more like a stable individual
Thinking, thinking, thinking
Paying less attention, being more attentive
Participating in speaking
Better with women, better with friends
Managing time, money, inebriation
Focus getting stronger
Cultivating true independence
Listening to an old music
Doing what I want to do responsibly, respectfully
Exercising leadership skills
Shifting perspectives, perception
Pushing harder, reaching farther
Reading, writing, and reciting
Building capacities on stronger foundations